SuperSlavisWife and Elspeth challenged me to do a week in the life of me. (Here: http://hearthtobelovely.wordpress.com/2014/10/08/a-week-in-the-life-of-me/ if you want it).
I only put the thing up over at HHH because I wanted to make it easier to have a convo. Usually householdy stuff is here.
What's interesting is the various fallout.
1) I tried really hard to impress imaginary people and stressed myself out. "What's the next task, can't let the side down!"
2) I noticed that my theoretical schedule and my real life weren't meshing well. That's useful, and I need to look at that more closely. It's very very easy to devalue the things I hold dearest to take care of the ducks that nibble and/or things that I think make me look like a better person.
It's tricky for me. I am a person whose energy-source is time spent in nature, alone... and whose deepest desire is to work creatively. And on paper I value those things, but emotionally, I feel like the time I spend on "me" is essentially selfish time - it's hard to devote myself to that time without feeling like I'm leaving things undone. (And I need to watch my phone time - I can't sew on the phone, though I can clean up a storm.... at some point I need to say, "enough!" and put down the duster and start running my sewing machine).
But then a week or two goes by and I hardly touch my machine, I don't get out in nature, and I feel blobby. I'm not Candy... I don't actually *like* cleaning. I clean because it needs to be done, and I can do it on autopilot. And I value an orderly and beautiful space. Can't have flowers on the dining room table if you can't find the dining room table under the debris!
Well, BB said you needed a priority list, and I think it's time to think that out a bit.... perhaps I'll do that over at HHH. I do my best thinking while "talking", after all! :D